To Leave

When you think about it, I mean really think about it, there is no reason you shouldn’t leave. You have all the power in the world to pack up and go in whichever direction your heart desires, and not money nor family nor societal obligation can actually physically stop you from doing it. Instead we allow these things to stop us by tying our minds into such a knot that we cannot go; for how are we bound to these places except by the tyranny  of our thoughts?

This is not to say that our excuses, which is what they really are, are invalid. We live our lives through our thoughts, and our minds dictate to us what is most important. When our minds say we must hold onto family, friends, finances and even, in dire circumstances, life, our bondage is just as real as actual chains, for we cannot challenge our minds with our minds any more than an iron can still water to flatness. It is only when we recognize deeply and truly that our minds are transient in nature and that we have the power to change the direction of its flow that we can let go of these places and these things which would bind us to them.

So what reason do I have to stay? This place, flat and still, has caused frustration and anguish. I have desired for as long as I can remember to leave it behind, and yet here I am at twenty one held up within its arms. In my time I have blamed money, never enough of it to go around, social obligations like class and work, familial bonds and other extraneous circumstances beyond my control. Here however, I stand on the cusp of something new. Money may still be a problem but my car offers me freedom, I am about to graduate and move onto other jobs so those social ties are disintegrating, and as my sister leaves home my family grows apart. Never before have I been more able to leave this place but even now something stops me. I wonder “why should I stay here”.